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Sunday, June 01, 2008/ 10:29 AM
Way too depressed. The first thing I wake up in the morning, I think about - Campfire. D: Gah. Can it stop bugging me srsly! Its occupying every single space in my brain! I cannot breathe! Ah. How painful. Plus, awful cramps. Gosh, this camp is so not gonna rock. ):
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Ay. Fuck. Srsly, I'm sorry. I dont mean to use such a word but I'm in a really really bad mood. Maybe its because of that and the cramps that makes me feel so frustrated. Adding on to the frustration is the campfire thing. I like just got home from buying all the leftover camp stuff that is needed to be bought and then on the LRT back alone I was beginning to feel abit, well depressed/emo. ): Got home packed bag, on the com and went to see email that KT sent me. All the songs thr. And for a long time I just paused thr. Srsly. Like literally just sit thr and stare at screen. Felt so helpless larh. Not knowing what to do next. The feeling sucks. In the end decided to call KT, even though aft I had heard her advice, I was still helpless. Like so many of the songs I dont know how to sing. And most that I know, is I only know bits and parts of it. Very frustrating. Its like racking your brains over an answer you can never get. Ended up feeling very pekcek. Then I just hecked, arranged the songs to the best of my ability. I hope the arrangement was okay. And then just hit the "Send" button, and off the email went to Mrs Lee and Miss Liew. Felt relieved some sort or another aft that. But I know that I'm still very frustrated as I type this out. At first, wanted to chat with someone. First person that came to mind, Raymond. But he wasn't online and I think he may be out with friends aft Chem tuition. Wanted to ring him up but aft picking up the phone and pressing the first number, I decided not to and hanged up. For the particular moment I just realised I have nobody to turn to. Loneliness. Sigh. I know many may think I'm siao like getting so emotional(?) over campfire? But this is me. This is just, helpless me. Nobody to turn to. I hope he can give me a call. Leave it to fate. I'm totally depressed and not excited. Wow.
&maybeIdomissyoulots.Sigh
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Last post before I'm off to camp. Goodbye pple, and miss me with love! Lol. I'll miss everybody too. XOXO
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